February 10, 2006
Close your eyes, take a deep breath, and centre yourself.
Today was my first stress-free day in three weeks. I've been working my arse off, meeting deadlines and finishing projects and getting ready for an exhibition we only found out about at the last minute and then installing it and staying up all night and attending lectures and trying to keep up with the readings for my two night classes. And in the middle of all that, the loss of my Fat Boy was a terrible blow, right when I was least equipped to handle it. I wanted to write back and individually thank everyone who left me a comforting comment about losing Pickle, but I can't; this is the first chance I've had to spend the time to do it and it turns out it's just too emotionally draining. But I want you all to know that it did give me comfort; thank you.
It was a real shock for me, not only because there didn't seem to be anything wrong with him, but because I had been mentally bracing myself to lose his sister Benny (aka Fat Girl). Despite our efforts to help her lose weight she's only become more obese, so much so that it's sometimes difficult for her to go up and down the stairs (she goes down them with her back feet hopping together like a rabbit's would, rather than one after the other like a cat's normally do). So I was not expecting her to live until I'm finished school, and was worrying about how he would cope with her loss. Instead, she's having to cope with his, but it's for the best, I think; Fat Girl's much more independant and I think she'll get by alone better than Fat Boy would have. Peter says she seems okay.
I had a surprise in the mail this week that was excellently timed: Anna sent me some fabric she knew I liked
and some wool:
I have a thing for little boys' underpants (not THAT kind of thing!), the fabrics are always so cute, and I wish I could get them in my size. This is stretch jersey with little cars all over it and the message "are we there yet?". I'm going to make myself some underpants and a matching bra with it, and it's going to be supercute. I already have some ideas for what to do with the yarn as well, but for now I'll be setting it aside until the paying knitting jobs are all done.
Anna also included some little worry dolls because I am so obviously uberstressed right now. Thanks Anna! Your gift cheered me up right when I needed it, on a really, really bad day.
The weekend is definitely looking up. Today I had no obligations, and I slept for a whopping ten hours (minus the hour or so that I always lie awake around 4 am, something that happens even at times in my life when I'm not a giant walking ball of stress). I've got a lot of sleep debt to pay off, and expect I'll be making a few more payments in the next couple of nights. Tomorrow I'm going out to Hockey Mom's place, where I'm going to sit on my arse on a comfy couch and work on my Knitting Olympics entry, eat and drink and socialize and NOT worry and NOT scramble to get something done and NOT deprive myself of sleep in order to read stuff that is going in one ear and out the other right now anyway. Then Sunday we're going to a hockey game and having a little birthday party afterwards. And getting out of Athens for a night is going to feel SO good.
Spotted while going out for food between classes yesterday:
The merchandising of this university's logo goes way, way too far.
Posted by jodi at February 10, 2006 08:51 PM | categories: self-absorbtion
I'm glad it got there, I guess it's good that I couldn't get my act together to send it sooner as it arrived at a good time!
Have a great weekend and relax, hope you knit loads!
Posted by: Anna at February 11, 2006 05:30 AM
I've been so bad about blog reading, but I just wanted to send my condolences about Fat Boy as well as my congratulations on your design acceptance.
I'm glad that you're having a fun weekend, as it certainly sounds as if you're past due.
And to make this a complete amalgalm (sp?) of comments that should have gone on other entries, I love the skirt- some of my favorite pants are old man pants that I've bought at the thrift store. Why aren't there men's pants like that now?
Posted by: Cathi at February 11, 2006 09:59 AM
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your Fats. Those furry kids are quite special to us and they are here for far too short of a time.
I hope the other Fats is doing well and that you are getting by.
I wanted to give you a link to the diet I feed my cats. http://www.blakkatz.com/recipes.pdf
I have been feeding my cats this diet since 2000 and it helped them each lose a bit of weight. They probably each went from 12 to 9 lbs or so and are good now. I find that a fresh diet is much easier to take weight off of the furry beasts than kibble. (Don't know that you DO feed kibble.) I hope this helps some.
Posted by: grace at February 13, 2006 02:00 PM
I'm so sorry about your loss.
I have no idea what you've tried with your cats in terms of weight loss, but I have FINALLY had some good luck.
My little Kylie cat (well, my obese little Kylie cat, who was very chubby at age 7 when I adopted her) switched to a prescription weight loss formula dry food made by Science Diet (formula R/D, I think), and it was worked wonders. The weight is coming off, and when she reaches her goal weight, she'll switch to a Science Diet weight-maintenance formula.
We had no luck with the Iams light food, or any variety of senior cat foods, so I'm thrilled to have this work.
Posted by: jodi h. at February 15, 2006 09:41 AM