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July 25, 2007
slackass
I'm having a lot of trouble with motivation of late. I can't commit to any projects, can't get anything done, at times can't even lift myself from my seat to do something that I know needs doing, that I very much want to do, even. I haven't been drawing in my sketchbook, haven't touched the printing I brought home with me (should have known), have been staring at the same pile of half-sewn skirts for a week now. And that's just my school work, never mind the things I wanted to accomplish around the house this month. And now I'm facing the prospect of leaving those projects untouched for another year while I go back to school. Gah. And my website is terribly out of date, and I've got weeks' worth of photos to share, and recipes to post, and. . . and. . . I dreamed the other night that I hadn't blogged in so long that I was no longer the number one Jodi Green in a Google search, AND I was reading about it in the New York Times. Pathetic.
We're having a little party this Friday before leaving for Athens, and I've been too sidelined by migraines the past two days to do any cleaning, menu planning, or finding places to put all of the boxes of stuff that fill the living room. Now that there are only a few days left, I have to lift my sorry carcass from my fainting sofa and get down to work (because everybody knows that having a party is just an excuse to get the house clean). Here are the things I need to accomplish today:
-wash out roll-top desk and new bookshelf
-bring boxes of glasses and china up from basement, unpack, wash and put in bookshelf
-move the echinacea to the other side of the garden (I can already see this one getting shunted off to tomorrow)
-sew zippers into three skirts
-move drawing boards to basement
-pack school stuff
Am I setting myself up for failure? Wouldn't be the first time. The dishes part and packing the school stuff are both pretty big jobs, but I'll attack them in dribs and drabs throughout the day (which is probably a hint as to why it's so hard for me to finish things, eh?).
In lieu of anything more interesting than my self-absorbed whine, here's a picture of last night's supper at Terra Cotta, Windsor-Detroit's best pizza:
Posted by jodi at July 25, 2007 09:55 AM | categories: food : self-absorbtion
Comments
I feel for your lack of motivation, I've got the same thing failing to go on out here. Is it the weather? The alignment of the stars? Could I please for the love of mercy finish _something_?
Good luck with your list - we are planning to come to the party, Raven's been loopy the past couple of weeks but seems to be getting his head back together now so we should be fit for society - or as much as we ever are, anyway!
Posted by: kelly at July 25, 2007 11:10 AM
I'm completely unmotivated as well at the moment.. the closest I've come to creating anything is to push stuff around on my craft table, sigh, and walk away.
I guess this means you'll be heading back to Georgia soon? I'm sure I'll read it in the papers when Googles Number 1 Jodi Green arrives...
-#1 knotty mouse
Posted by: mouse at July 25, 2007 11:26 AM
Mmm...artichoke hearts on pizza. Want!
Posted by: Megan E at July 25, 2007 11:57 AM
I completely understand the blahs that you're feeling right now. Been attacked by a flurry of them myself. Being out of a steady job will do that to a person I guess...
I hope you'll shake yourself out of it soon.
The pizza looks very yummy too. I love artichoke pizza!
Posted by: connie at July 25, 2007 12:00 PM
{airmchar psychologist}
It's the summer doldrums, compounded by glumness at the thought of leaving home again for far too long.
{/armchair psychologist}
The summer will end before too long, and once you get back in the swing of school, you'll get more done. And it's your last year, right? Start counting down the days till you're home for good!
Posted by: Janice in GA at July 25, 2007 12:46 PM
Yummy pizza! Makes me hanker after the pizzas I had in Italy on my just finished vacation. Sigh. As for the long list of things to do...maybe this will help. If there are any projects that just need an hour or 2 to finish, do them first.That way the list is not so long. And the time you would have spent on them can be dedicated to the bigger jobs left. Not a perfect solution, but it helps me....
Posted by: Carol at July 25, 2007 02:18 PM
I have the same problem: I made way too ambitious plans for the summer and now feel like crap because I didn't finish any of them. It must be some kind of evil grad school thing that makes us believe that we need to work all year and don't have to time to just relax and veg, ever. I agree with the commenters who said that it may also be a reaction to the prospect of leaving home again. In these situations I try to do triage and just get the most important stuff done first!
Posted by: Marie at July 25, 2007 02:29 PM
Sometimes it is good to let your body and mind relax. You are incredibly talented and motivated, it is OK to relax.
Posted by: Melly Testa at July 26, 2007 11:00 PM